Just back from the vets. Nothing much to report unfortunately. They x-rayed her stomach, her bowels are full still, she is still constipated, I didn't think she was. They checked her stomach and can't feel any lumps, so no obvious tumers. They took a load of bloods, and I have to wait a week for the results, so will know more come Friday morning. I have to continue with her meds for now, and see what happens then. She has lost another .2kg in 2 days. She now weighs 4.5kg.

We went to see the Susan Boyle musical last night, and it was brilliant. Very emotional. It made you laugh and cry (a lot of tears), and really pulled at the heart strings. Then after the actors bowed, the lights went down, and Susan Boyle came on, and sang 'I Dreamed A Dream,' followed by another song i'd not heard before, and chatted to us. She was A...MAY...ZING! We went to the stage door after and met her, but her manager moved her along before I could get a photo with her, so totally gutted. I got my biography signed though which is ace. Am hoping to get a pic with her either tonight, tomorrow or Saturday, whenever I go back there. Might wait til Saturday, as am in the area anyway, saves petrol. It's true what i've read about her, she can switch from happy to unhappy very quickly, she was jolly one minute, then dismissive the next. I don't think she likes crowds.

While in the audience, I spotted a woman who looked very familiar to me. I turned to Andrea and said she looks like the neighbour from 2point4 Children, a comedy from the 90's. In the end I couldn't hold it in any longer, so asked her, and it was her. She was overjoyed at being recognised, as she's not been on tv for 13 years, but loved it. We chatted briefly, she's just about to do a play in Cheltenham I think she said. She was a really nice lady, and hasn't changed. She played Rona. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gslGAo6B-G4

After we went to The Village, and I pulled, she must have been about 18-20, but her and her mate moved after a while, before I could give her my number, and I couldn't be arsed to look for her, so after we finished our drinks, we left.

Passed my telephone interview today, and have an assessment day next month, so hope to do well there.

Had a puke earlier, first time in ages. Was really hungry, so ate a microwave weight watchers meal of spaghetti and meatballs, and it disagreed with me.

Bonny has to have her last feed at 6pm, so tonight will be fun, not! She will want more food late tonight, and I have to try to ignore her. Don't have a choice, but it'll be hard, she ain't gonna shut up.

More tomorrow...

Just come home from the vets with Bonny. Took her in for a check up again on the back of her continuous bowel problems. She has lost even more weight now and theyre worried too. She now weighs 4.7kg. Normal cats weigh 4kg. She once weighed 6.75kg before we started her on a diet. She has mostly lost weight since we started it but over the last month although eating the same amount her weight has dramatically dropped. For her size, and she is a big cat length ways anyway, 5kg is about right, but i can now feel her spine, and the vets are even worried. They have said cause she is vicious we will need to sedate her this time to run full tests, so first thing friday morning my mate is taking me back there with her to sedate her and run full tests including bloods. Should have the results next week cause of the bank holiday. Im very worried, came home and cried. Just have to suck it and see. Off to see Susan Boyle tonight so hopefully thatll cheer me up.

Nice day again today.

Got a telephone interview later in the week.

Picked up the bike today, and it's working fine now. Need to buy a bungy (if you don't know what one is, I won't bother to explain, look it up) to help keep it dry, but otherwise all is well so far, and right on time for Pride.

Very upset my trainers are now dirty. Well, the left hand trainer, because I wore them to ride the bike home, and the gears made it dirty. My nice white trainers, no longer white :o(

Gas man came and did service, so another job done.

More tomorrow...

two problems with having the doors and windows open when its hot, you end up hearing the neighbours bloody music and cant block it out unless you shut the doors and windows, and you smell their wacky baccy cause they smoke it outside and it wafts in my flat. Nasty.

Went to cab today, spent the day photocopying mainly. Bought a new bag at lunchtime, which i really needed.

Spent a couple of hours at home after before heading to book group.

Got apology from womens aid after last week. They want me to call them to arrange another appointment. Im not going to.

Got a couple of new books from the library. Read a really interesting true crime book about people trafficking, namely a brit woman tricked into prostitution in switzerland. Have taken another two true crime books on the same subject. Cant believe this stuff happens, its frightening.

Gas man out tomorrow for a service.

Housing have built a new gate where the neighbours mates kicked the last one in. Hopefully this will last longer.

Fircroft called me earlier asking me to come down next month and be photographed for their new brochure out in august, which was a nice surprise.

More tomorrow

decided to paint the upstairs hallway today. Got the white paint out, the ceiling is brown from the previous tennent who smoked. The white paint wouldnt cover it, itll need about 4 coats i reckon. Did half but had to sit down as was feeling dizzy, so rested then did the rest. Gave up after one coat. May try again another day. May see if i can afford one coat paint but after seeing that on watchdog recently where it goes yellow after a short while im unsure.

Watched Fantastic Mr Fox, then tried to watch another movie but after 5 mins i was bored so deleted it.

Just ate a weight watchers spag boll. It was actually quite nice, which surprised me, and the portion size was just right. In the old days i would have needed two to fill me up lol.

More tomorrow

really fucked off over that job. Its been pissing me off since yesterday. I know i should just believe that its their loss etc but im just getting so fucked off that i keep being told i get so close but the other candidate has more recent experience. Id have that too if someone would give me a fucking chance!

Nothing much going on today. Done some housework. Am pretty bored and disillusioned right now. Have bagged up two bag fulls of clothes for the charity collection on monday, so that got rid of a ton of clothes.

Am so pissed off, really dont wanna do anything today. Usually this feeling goes the following day, but i think they made the wrong decision not employing me.

More later

didnt get the job. The feedback was basically i did nothing wrong but the person that got the job was just a better candidate. Story of my life.

Mum called, the funeral is a week today. Ive told mum to send my apologies and ill visit my aunt in july when i visit.

Doc gave me my repeat of my vertigo tablets, said was giving me 84 but only gave me 40.

Picked up my grill tray from the sorting office, so can finally use my grill.

Got my tesco shopping. Ordered a ton of ingredients when it was cold for a stew, and now its hot lol. Everything came but the meat lol. Can you believe it, i have everything for the stew but the bloody meat lol. Oh well.

Bike still in garage, not heard from them. Hope theyre not ripping me off.

Changed my shorts today, im now a small in mens shorts. Whoop whoop. I weighed myself again today. I have now lost 7 and a half stone. I think im a size 12 now.

Tried my new trainers today, and they really do work. The backs of my legs were aching and the muscles were really working lol.

More tomorrow

But before I rant about the day, i'll begin with some sad news. My mum called me last night, and told me my Uncle Peter had passed away yesterday. He'd been ill for years, had 2 colostomy bags (one for each, if you get me) and I think was in his 70s. They called the ambulance yesterday but he passed away when they got to hospital. Liver failure I think she said. I presume the funeral will be after the Jubilee. Am gonna see if I can go along. He wasn't a blood relative, and we weren't close, but i'm still sad at his passing. I was lucky to persuade the folks to take me to see them in December, so I got to see him then, first time in many years, but if I hadn't seen him i'd have been gutted, so at least I have that. Sweet dreams Uncle Peter xxx I bought 4 Sympathy cards today while out, one for each of his 3 kids, my cousins, and one for his wife, my aunt. I'll post them tomorrow.

Today I had a 2nd interview. I think it went quite well. I hear on Monday. I'm 80/20 that I got it.

After that I went to The Public to meet with my advisor from In2Work, and we discussed the horrid email I got from Office Angels last week. I've decided to forward the email to her Manager, and to ask for a different advisor now, and that I do not want to work with that lady anymore.

After that I bought some new trainers for £35. Reebok, those ones that are supposed to help shape your legs or something. I also bought 2 pairs of shorts, but when I got them home I discovered they're too big. They're a medium lol. Have to bloody take them back tomorrow now and swap them. Not amused.

Have come home and filled in paperwork for a PPI claim, wrote out those 4 cards, and have screamed at the loan company for this particular PPI claim, for writing to me demanding a 5 figure sum for a loan that was cleared a number of years ago when I went bankrupt. They apologised prefusely for their error.

That's it for now, more tomorrow...

Took the bike back to the garage today. Would you believe it cut out a few times on the way there, but was running fine when it got there. Was gutted. It's like going to the doctor with a chesty cough, but not having the symptom when you get there! They're looking at it again though.

Went up West Brom, had an appointment at Women's Aid, turned up early, to be told the lady was off sick. I was furious. I asked why no one had called me to cancel the appointment, or why no one was taking over her place for me. They couldn't answer this. I've since written a letter of complaint!

My trainers have started rubbing me. It's been happening for a while, but I think yesterday's mile walk has set it off bad, and i'm blistering. It got worse today, so am having to look into buying new trainers now. That's all I need!

Bought some lettuce and salad cream, and limped home on the bus.

Back door open, so nice at home. Bins emptied. Still haven't hoovered, and have to iron a shirt for a 2nd interview tomorrow. Yes I have a 2nd interview for that job interview I felt I did well on the other week. The one I had to do the online tests for as well. Apparently there are 6 of us, for 2 to 3 jobs, so fingers crossed. I have a 50% chance of getting it.

Spoke to the PCT today about my tummy tuck. They're saying my BMI needs to be 25, so the surgeon is wrong (he said 24). They also said I need to be that for 2 years, which I am not happy about, as those who have had this operation I know of, waited only a few months to have it! I called my doctor, and was told I would have to visit him to talk to him about writing back to the surgeon, but was also told that they have no appointments for him til tomorrow, so I have to call back to book one, which means i'll still have to wait a good week minimum to see him! Impossible!

Bloody neighbours kept me up for ages last night. I went to bed at 10pm and could hear them talking in their bathroom, which is next to my bedroom. They stayed in there for 90 minutes, so I had to keep reading, cause I knew i'd not be able to sleep with them gassing for so long. The walls are so thin, I could hear them clearly. I wish they would realise this!

More tomorow...